Deni Iseli

Alone as HSP with dissociation Deni Iseli

Being alone, is of no particular significance to me. As a child I was left alone a lot. Of course, I didn't like that at first, but I got used to it. What I learned in my early childhood I now use to my advantage. This applies to almost all negative experiences from my childhood. As HSP, I now remember many details that I still process. I am not part of the family in which I grew up, because I did not meet the so-called criteria of all the other family members. I did not feel togetherness. I felt no emotional connection, because there was no empathy and compassion. It is clear that I am a little different than all the other family members. There is nothing wrong with that. They are, as they are. I am, the way I am. Now that I am 62 years old and making progress with my therapy, I know that I grew up in a family, with the presence of the mental disorders PTSD, (open and hidden) narcissism, codependency, gaslighting (cunning manipulation technique of hidden narcissism) and TPS. With what I now know about how people can be and all my experiences and knowledge, I have no problem at all living my own life, as it suits me. Now that I am 62 years old, I find it ideal to live alone and independently, because, as HSS, I always want to try and experience. Living alone and independently has many advantages for me, compared to my situation in my negative childhood.