The Metamorphosis of Self Breaking Bread

Freeing one's self of codependency. Is it possible? I think and believe that no, one can't. I see how all the research is correct. What to do if you can't free yourself of codependency? You learn how to live with it. I know that is fucking harsh, but I don't sugarcoat anything. As you read through this book, you will see how I battle with this. You will see how I lose. The butterfly in me is wanting to fully emerge. I am fighting it. I have to completely publish all these books before I can let that happen. I have to have my closure. I want it all to end. I need it all to end. Will it be the end? That's up to God, but I think it will. The year is 2017...the butterfly is not yet here. I do know that my current address 6616 adds up to 19. Next year is 2019! Whatever God has in store for me He is not letting it out of the bag. I'm nervous, uptight, a little scared...but I'm going to welcome whatever He brings me to. He hasn't let me down yet. The road that I've had to travel hasn't always been pretty. There are a number of things I refused to include within the covers of these books. Strife comes into our life like a raging bull. It suffocates us and drowns us and we pillage our own selves because we aren't equipped to handle it. Admit it: They don't teach this shit in school. We scream, holler, yell, cry, beat, pound, drink, smoke, get sexed up, go against every single value and moral that we ever had until we can't go anymore. We get beat the fuck down. If you've read the books prior to this one, you know what to do. If you're on this book, you've made it to the other side. That first dark place is behind you. I hope that what I've written has given you some strength, some power, some will to keep going. I know from the bottom of my heart that if you read those prior books, the next dark spell will be easier to waddle through. I'm equipping you with this power. I'm like you. I'm weak. I cry. I suffer. But...but... I bounce fucking back! Do you want to know why? Because I'm a woman... Hear Me Roar!